As we drove through the huge valleys and around the massive mountains I had time to reflect back on the last time I was in Les Deux Alpes for Crankworx. I had been practicing for the DH race and crashed on a road gap up top and broke my collarbone for the third time in a row...depressing to say the least. Bones heal, but the mental challenge that follows after multiple injuries in a row is inconceivable; you start to create these safety barriers for yourself to keep you free from injury and exposure to risk. But who wants a barrier when they're racing against the clock? It's not even a question - if you hold yourself back the time doesn't stop, the seconds count by faster and faster until finally you are at the bottom of a run questioning how you came to a place where you're okay with losing.
As the season has progressed by my riding has been getting better and better, and the fear of injury is etching away from my mind. The more I conquer fears the more I allow myself to take risks. My string of injuries ended last year in Crankworx when I broke my collarbone for the third and thankfully final time in a row. Arriving at the summit meant that I had made it a year since my last injury and two years since my first. I was happy to be back.
There is a big road gap at the top of the track with a wooden take off and a steep landing - as you arrive at the start gate you look through the first corner and around the second you can see it right there. This was my nemesis, this is where I crashed out last year. My first few runs I rode up to the lip and straight down the B line. I had thought about this race for the last month and decided that I was okay with taking the B-line, but on my fifth run I rode around the first turn and decided to commit and ride the drop...
I figured after the first time I’d be fine, I guess that's the strange thing about our mental abilities, with life after injury and hesitation holding us back. I actually felt worse and worse every other run. The fear of being injured again was haunting me every time I rode the drop. It didn’t help that during the whole weekend there were a few helicopter pickups. Access to the mountain with an ambulance is difficult, therefore they choose to bring in helicopters to rescue riders when they had serious injuries and couldn't be moved far. For any rider it's hard to see helicopters carrying out someone who has been injured on a bike. Having personally been carried away in a helicopter from the biggest accident of my life, the feeling is all too real and close. Every single run I was fighting back feelings that I have only just begun to overcome. That made this race particularly challenging.
As I rode from the top of the lift station to the beginning of my race run I passed a man on a stretcher covered by a foil blanket awaiting his helicopter ride. Surreal is the only word. Preparing to line up in the start gate I thought about the crazy weekend that had been so far, and I felt really stressed about all the memories that had surfaced over the weekend. As I raced down the hill fighting through those thoughts I realized that I chose this, no one put me here, no one is forcing me to do this, I want to be here. If I’m going to be here than why not try - stop giving up, stop hesitating and stop riding like the past is coming back.
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I think part of being an athlete, especially in action sports,
is that you're not only physically strong, you also need to be mentally strong.
Serious riders (as opposed to the guy jumping that fmx ramp to flat) build up the level of difficulty along with their level of skill, meaning that the risks involved are relatively small - jumping a 30ft double after having anything up to 28ft completely dialled isn't that risky.
The consequences when things do go pear shaped can still be pretty bad (although you do learn to ball ride out of situations) but paired with a relatively low chance of this actually occurring I think mtb isn't that much more dangerous than soccer or skiing and definitely not some sort of Jackass on a bike.
He seemed quite shocked when I told him that brave people are also scared, but they still do it anyway. He said "why do they still do it if they're scared?"
I told him that he will have to learn the answer himself, and when he has, he will understand!
Mastering your own fear is a skill you can't really be taught, you have to earn it.
Seeing how other people deal with injury can make a big difference to how you cope yourself.
I find these articles very interesting, more along these lines please pinkbike
This line from Tracey says it all to me!!!
""As I raced down the hill fighting through those thoughts I realized that I chose this, no one put me here, no one is forcing me to do this, I want to be here. If I’m going to be here than why not try - stop giving up, stop hesitating and stop riding like the past is coming back""
This is how I process and face my own barriers after breaking my neck, c1/2/3 and basically knocked my spine out of alignment down to my left pelvis, suffered a major brain injury I still struggle with every day. 3 years rehab and recovery, I got back on the DH bike, raced back to do an international DH race, retired soon after, now Im back 2 years later on a DH bike, training and stoked as ever to be prepared to enjoy and have fun, but also realise I need to up my game physically to be mentally strong on a DH bike.
As Trace says no one is forcing me I do this because I love it, I love being around it, DH people are the best, I can go to a race, talk with George Branigan, Brook, Wyn and they are super cool right down to the grom who whips my butt but still wants my help, because they see I have experience and am willing to take time with them.
Cheers DH, cheers to anyone who has the guts to get on a DH bike, Respect, it takes a certain type of person to do this regularly and especially race, its an extreme sport requiring total commitment or injury does await you, they're is no half way point, I think thats why everyone usually is super relaxed chilled and cool, we all face the same risks no matter how quick or the ability is, you the clock the hill, its unique dangerous thrilling!
Also Steve Peats article hangs on my wall so I can view it before every ride!
Great article, love more of this, PB
Should he be wandering around with a smile pasted across his mug, regardless, like some sort of demented Joker?
Anyway good article, Tracey.